Monday, December 31, 2012


I believe in 2013 ! Kisses ! 

Saturday, December 29, 2012

working on the redesign of my site !!

I'm working at this time on the redesign of my site ! His talent, his beauty, his state of mind, his ambiguity, his complexity, his personality, his uniqueness, his eyes ... make me so much inspired! There are so few people like him in this world.

 And his wonderful smile !! 

Working on the lyrics, I watched my videos concerts.Wahou! What memories! I also opened my Tokio Hotel CDs to look the booklets! And look what I found! My most precious dedication. This one of Bill on the Lyric of my favorite song "Totgeliebt"! For me, this dedication is a symbol! It means the beginning of a great passion!

I immerse myself in the fantasy world of Bill Kaulitz again! Tschüss !!

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Mozart - Karajan ... Bill Kaulitz

Strange title! No it's simple !

Back to Paris! Tonight I 'm working on the redesign of my site I 'm listening to the Requiem of Mozart, with the philarmonique orchestra of Vienna supervised by Herbert Von Karajan. In short, I'm immersed in the talent with 3 persons ! 

I 'd like my new site is ready at the beginning of 2013. But I want however this site is perfect !


My site with the new design :


Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Christmas with my family !!

I spent Christmas with my family in the east of France. A very good time !! I visited my mother in the Alzheimer Center in Nancy. 
I cooked apple pies. Everybody liked! My mom too! I was proud of my apple pies !! 

My father , Julie and me !! I like this pic ! Even if my father seems strange on this photo! 

I cooked today "Bouchées à la Reine" typically French dish. Very good! Everybody liked !! 

 I return to Paris tomorrow. I work Thursday, December 27. I hope everybody had a nice Christmas . 

It's me today !! 

Monday, December 24, 2012

Sunday, December 23, 2012

So tired

" ... Love and death, love and death
Don't you mess, don't you mess with my heart
Love and death, love and death
Don't you mess, don't you mess with my heart
With my heart, with my heart ... 

... All the pain that we've been trough
I'll be dyin' to save you
Feel the blood in my veins flow
I'll be dyin' to save you...

... Love am i watchin' you swim or just seeing you drown
Is it tragedy or comedy? ... "

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Bill VS Marie !! :-)

"IPhone 5 with BTK " VS "Iphone 4S with BTK" & "Ipad2 with BTK"

The winner is ............

Oh!! Baby Bill !!! 

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Sullen !!

I'm sullen today !!  I sleep badly at the moment! It 's not because of the end of the world. I don't believe in it. I believe in the end of a world and in the revival of the other one. As the Mayas. So positive for the world. I believe in 2013 .. 
No I'm sullen because many persons who I love, worries me at the moment. I didn't work this morning. When I wanted to go to work, Paul stood up. He didn't feel good at all. I told him to return to his bed. Other persons worry me in my family. 
And I 'm always worried about Bill and Tom living in Los Angeles. Apparently they are now suffering the harassment of stalker in LA. The end of year is not really pleasant for them.
I so think of them. Regularly. I hope that everything 'll turn out right and that 2013 'll be a good year of success for them. In any case I 'll be there for that and to support them.
Paul feels better now! I 'm going to be able to leave him alone and go to the work. Tonight, I go to the theater in Paris. Long ago. Maybe if Paul feels good!

"... dann wird alles gut
dann wird alles gut
wird alles gut
alles gut ..."

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Quiet Sunday at Home !!

Yesterday I received these 3 bags Naf Naf I bought online. A big deal. I love these bags. 

My favorite !!

 And when you get your online orders there is always a gift for cat! :-)

Here : Lova and the apple !! 

 I ran in the woods this morning with the Humanoid live in the ears. Now I run with a watch which gives me my race time, my distance and my heart rate during the race.
I run long distances. it 's prudent to check my heart.
I was very surprised this morning that my heart was beating at 55 beats per minute before starting my race.
At rest, my heart beat at 50, probably.
Wow! Like great athletes!
 During the race my heart beats at 160 beats per minute.
 I bought this watch with the sensors and GPS. The best !

 Today :
Race distance 16 km 2
Race Time 1h16

What's funny is that my heart rate changes with the rhythm of the songs I listen to. I recover with Shadow ♥, Zoom Into Me ....
A quiet Sunday at home !!


Saturday, December 15, 2012

I miss your smile !!

I miss this sweet smile! 2 years ago today this smile lit up my life! It was the last time I saw him !
2 years! It's an eternity! How could I hold out ? (Thank you BTK App and VIP Call TH)
I'll soon be in Cologne for the TV show DSDS in February, March or April 2013. I really don't know when. But I 'll go. Sure ! Several times !!

Bill - Tokyo - 15th december 2010
Bill - Berlin - 22nd October 2012
 Photo of the day !
Lova , my so beautiful Cat - 15th december 2012

Tuesday, December 11, 2012


"I try to find you beyond the expectation
Beyond myself
And I don't know any more so much I love you
Who of us both is absent."

Paul Eluard

Saturday, December 8, 2012

My thoughts

I think of him all the time. I know that his sorrow is immense. I know how the loss of his dog is terrible for him. I would so like to find a remedy to soothe his pain. I feel so helpless and useless.
He occupies all my thoughts!

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Sad Day !!

"Yesterday our little Dachshund girl passed away in a terrible way and with her a part of us ..." . Here the words of Bill and Tom, that I read this morning on the application BTK twins when I arrived at my work.
I felt immediately the pain of Bill. He so loved this little dog whom he called My Little Girl. 
I also understood his sadness of these last days and the meaning of this candle he had posted the day before. 

I wanted to write something, but the words didn't come. I didn't know how to express to the twins my support. I so felt their big grief . 
I looked at the photo of Little Girl with her ​​sweet eyes for several minutes. And my tears flowed down.
I thought of Bill and in my mind I didn't stop repeating: " Mon Pauvre Ange! Mon Pauvre Poussin!" ("My Poor Angel! My Poor Chick! ")I told myself that all the day. And I finally found my words. But I feel so helpless in front of the sadness of Bill and Tom.

Rest In Peace Little Girl !
Don't worry I 'll watch over your Master, as I do for many years. And I also know that you, where you are, you continue to watch over him.

 The little flame went out!!

Why, a few days ago I thought of Little Girl and I wondered if she had finally well recovered of her wounds caused by this coyote.a few months ago.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Interview of the day !!! Bill

The Journalist, writer Ulrich Wickert met Bill in Berlin last October. This meeting released today in "Werte schaffen Werte".
 I liked this meeting. I liked the atmosphere in Berlin of this meeting. I like the evolution of Bill! I like his way of speaking. 
And this hotel in Berlin, where I stayed two weeks ago !! Wonderful Hotel ! 

 I have to listen to this video again. I want to understand everything by listening. I understand better and better German. I love listening to this language. Especially when Bill talks

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

My Calendar 2013!

I just received my 2013 calendar, customised !! I love it !!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

My Christmas Tree !! Done !

Blue and Silver !! I love it !! It 's as I wanted !! 

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Christmas time !!

Friday night, at Bercy Village after the show Alegria of 'Cirque du Soleil'. It's Christmas !!! I love this time !! 

Today I bought my Christmas tree and a new decoration. I want my tree blue and silver

My cat is already interested! Grrr !
I found an interesting book in Paris last night.

"Divine Proportion" of  Priya Hemenway . (In french : "Le code secret") 

"Phi In Art, Nature, and Science"

 "The number Phi, simply defined, is one plus the square root of five, all divided by two. But its myriad occurrences in art, nature, and science have been a source of speculation and wonder for thousands of years. Divine Proportion draws upon both religion and science to tell the story of Phi and to explore its manifestations in such diverse places as the structure of the inner ear, the spiral of a hurricane, the majesty of the Parthenon, and the elusive perfection of the Mona Lisa. A universal key to harmony, regeneration, and balance, Phi is at the heart of a tantalizing story begun on clay tablets in ancient Babylon, and which will continue to be written for centuries to come."

William Blake : " To see a world in a grain of sand and heaven in a wild flower Hold infinity in the palms of your hand and eternity in an hour."

I 'm passionate about science, astronomy, nature and art. I'm really curious to read this book.

 Today is World AIDS Day!

 "We are going to win this fight. But the fight is not over." —President Obama on World AIDS Day

Friday, November 30, 2012

Magnificent Alegria Show - Worry !!

I attended in the late afternoon with Julie and Paul the show 'Alegria' by 'Le Cirque Du Soleil' at Paris Bercy. I was amazed by this magnificent show. Paul and Julie loved this show too. We were fascinated. The acrobatics are amazing and the clowns so funny. I 'll go to see again " Le Cirque du Soleil " as soon as I 'll have the opportunity. 


 Worry !!

 Bill worries me a lot at the moment.  I have the feeling he 's sad and things aren’t going well for him. He is missing for long period on BTK application and when he posts photo or text, we feel a big sadness. I check BTK App day and night as soon as I can . I want to find him again, to feel his presence. I didn’t sleep really a lot last night. I can’t. I feel him sad and I feel so helpless to support him. I post comments on BTK App to support him, but I ‘m sure these comments are not read. I can’t bear that some things aren’t going well for him.
 I think of him non-stop. I ‘d like to see his beautiful smile soon.

I love you Baby !!

Thursday, November 29, 2012



Tomorrow in Paris Bercy !!! I can't wait ! It's a so wonderful show !! 

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Thoughts !!

I think of you !!!

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Weekend at home !!

I had a quiet weekend at home !! Quiet ? Not really !! :-)

On Saturday morning, I was in the market of the city to sell second-hand books for the benefit of the journeys of the middle school of my son. I was there with other parents. I had a great time.

 I found time to work on the redesign of Saturday afternoon and Sunday afternoon.
But I always have new ideas. I have a great pleasure with this site redesign

Sunday morning I ran 18 km. The Humanoid Tokio Hotel live is now too short. I listened to the live Humanoid and I ended up with Linkin Park's new album that I love.  Soon a half-marathon! Yes I want !!

 In the woods this morning, it was so beautiful!

 My Little Chick! I'm in love!

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Animations ! ♥

The twins are really beautiful in these animations. Bill is really beautiful with the yellow shirt. He is ready to practice Zumba. :-)

Often when I talk about Bill, I call him : my Chick! (In French , Mon Poussin )  .... ;-)

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Fascination! ♥

I have a fascination for this so beautiful tatto and the jewelry which covers it.. Why ? Because this tattoo contains full of mysteries. These jewels contain secrets. And also because these jewelry and tattoo belong to a person who holds an important place in my life, but especially in my heart.
I just spent a pleasant evening watching this picture and try to decode this drawing. 

Copyright - App BTK Twins

Elephant Symbol : 

Elephant Symbol
In China, India and Africa, the elephant is a symbol for power, dignity, intelligence and peace.
There are several lessons we can learn from the elephant and these too are used as its symbol: strength, wisdom, solitude, strong sense of loyalty to the family and intelligence. Other communities still consider the Elephant to be a strong symbol of luck. And thus the saying goes keep a lucky elephant at the door to your house so that you can get protection from bad luck. 
 I would also say that this animal is vegetarian. It doesn't kill to eat. And I think this is important for the one who wears this tattoo.

 Compass rose tattoo :  

The person who has a compass rose tattoo is probably loves to travel. It may be a sign of wanderlust or direction in life. May be nautical association. Someone may get this tattoo as a symbol of staying true to oneself.
Although these tattoos were used by sailors, for the modern-day tattoo aficionados, there are other meanings attached to this tattoo design. The meanings attached to them are a little philosophical. To some it stands for focus. It reminds the wearer of the tattoo to focus on the future and let the bygones be bygones. This is especially true about moving ahead after a rocky and tumultuous relationship. It can also indicate leaving an addiction behind. The last of the meaning is to start life afresh and look forward to the things that life has to offer.
In case someone has drifted away in life without any direction or goal to pursue, such a tattoo can be a reminder that if you want to achieve anything in life, then you should have the right direction. To some this tattoo design can also be about remembering, honoring and learning from the past, and at the same time looking forward and being open to whatever the future holds for the person. It is actually an all-encompassing view of life, rather a very healthy view of life.

In the center of the drawing : Irken symbol or not !! ??  

If it 's an Irken symbol, it 's opposite .
This symbol called "Irken Symbol" was designed by Jhonen Vasquez. The "Irken Symbol" comes from the cartoon "Invader Zim" created also by Jhonen, which is based on an alien invader called Zim and his robot GIR, coming from the planet Irken, apparently sent to Earth to conquer our planet.

A lot of questions : 

- Really an Irken Symbol ? For Aliens ? Maybe . But I have to do more research!
- Why this Irken Symbol is upside down ? 
- The pendant is positioned at the center of the central symbol. Why?
- What secret is hidden in the pendant?

-  What is it written in the part hidden and not revealed, of the tattoo ?

 This boy still hides many mysteries and secrets. He never stops to fascinate and amaze me. 


" ..

Whisper me
All your Secrets
Whisper me
All my Secrets
Whisper me
All your Secrets
Whisper me
Celebrate it loud!

Monday, November 19, 2012

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Weekend with my family - Epinal

The road was really long between Berlin and Epinal (917 km). Thank you German highways!  The traffic was very difficult in France between Metz and Nancy at 6 p.m. . Finally I found my dad and Pepsi, this adorable 5 months kitten,  in the evening yesterday. 

Berlin - From my hotel room, early Nov. 16, 2012. 

Last Breakfast in Berlin !!

Bye bye Berlin !!! See you soon !!
I spent a very pleasant Saturday with my father, my brother and Pepsi. Tomorrow I 'll go to see my sister in Nancy. We 'll go to visit my mom. Then, I 'll drive to Paris. I 'll work next Monday !!

Pepsi !!

Pepsi !!