Thursday, December 28, 2017

nostalgic .. 😔

The last video of Tokio Hotel makes me so nostalgic. Not because I'm in the video. But these images of Turin remind me a wonderful weekend, a wonderful time with wonderful boys .. These beautiful moments that remind you that life is beautiful... Thank You Tokio Hotel boys for this beautiful memory .. 💖💗😘😘😘😘

Thursday, December 21, 2017

#2017bestnine on Instagram

 I am so anxious for a few days. Not knowing when I'll see Bill again, makes me so anxious. I miss him so much. Maybe we'll meet in the desert next April. I hope .. 
I wanted so much to celebrate my next birthday with him😔 Next time .. maybe 

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Wednesday, December 6, 2017

France is crying today ...

Johnny was .. - an exceptional voice - an extreme kindness. - a legend - the most popular French singer .. He was a part of our lives.  Forever in our hearts .. We are all sad .. 
and .. 
3200 shows - 50 albums - 110 million records sold - 40 gold records ... 

Sunday, December 3, 2017

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Gorillaz in Paris ... What a show !!!!

I attended the concert of Gorillaz last friday night at "Le Zenith" in Paris !! Amazing show ... 

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Thursday, November 23, 2017

Connection .. 💞

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Monday, November 20, 2017

I'm back from the Dream Machine Tour (Additional shows)

Tokio Hotel has just finished the European Dream Machine tour, with 11 additional shows. I attended 4 of these shows.
Luxemburg on 5th November, Turin on 12 November, Nancy on 16 November and Berlin on 18 November ... 

My favorite time was in Turin of course with a Dream Machine VIP package and a wonderful weekend in Turin with the guys , with 2 crazy nighs .. 
I had an appointment at the hotel bar on Saturday November 11, at 10:30 pm for a welcome drink.
I was so stressed before going to the meeting. I was so scared that Bill was not present at this welcome drink.
But he was there with the 3other boys and he welcomed me in the best way. 
How I like this boy !!💓 

We had a wonderful night . I would have liked speaking much more with Bill. I would also have loved that he comes in Nightclub with us. But I understood that he went to bed first. He had to be OK for the show the next day. But the night with the other 3 guys was amazing.
I would like to find another opportunity to talk to Bill. I have so many things to tell him. I can't wait to meet him the next time ... 

I have no pictures on Saturday night, just wonderful memories with friends. 

Turin, 12 November 2017 - Dream Machine Tour
Turin, 12 November 2017 - Dream Machine Tour

The 2 other fans with me at the hotel for DM package seemed at first very friendly. (a French and a Portuguese) . 
They disappointed me, especially the French, who seems to know a little too much the house of the twins in LA and several places they frequent. I also learned that she told bullshit about me about my behavior at the hotel. Fortunately, the fans know me and didn't believe it.
The Portuguese was friendly, but harassed me on whatsapp the following days so I give a message to Tom from her, in Nancy or Berlin during my M & G.
It's really hard to have fan friends. That's why I travel alone on the roads of the tours. Too much disappointment.

Monday, October 30, 2017


I love this photo of Bill .. 

What I see in his beautiful eyes reminds me why I'm by his side everyday for 10 years .. in love 💗

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Friday, October 20, 2017

Boy Don't Cry

What a beautiful video !! The guys of Tokio Hotel keep surprising me. Bill is amazing .. 
With this video, they wanted to talk about sex change, drag queens. It was very risky. It coud quickly fall into vulgarity.
And not at all .. No vulgarity ..beautiful catches !! What a perfect performance of Bill !!
I love this video .... 💖

Thursday, October 12, 2017

Thursday, September 21, 2017

10 years ago ...

... almost 10 years ago in Montreal, it was the 1st show of Tokio Hotel on the American continent .. I was there .. because I wanted absolutely to support them for this 1st show  .. 

It was on 9th february 2008 and it was my birthday .. 

and .. 9th february 2018 Tokio Hotel will perform in Toronto .. Canada again .. and it will be my birthday .... ?!?!!

Time flies and passion remains .. 

Bill - 9th February 2008 - Montreal 

Friday, September 1, 2017

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Song of the day .. 💖

.. 12 years ago .. #12YearsDurchDenMonsun .. The music "specialists" said that this group would last 2 years .. 😁

And in 2017, the magic is still there .. DANKE SCHÖN 💓

Monday, August 14, 2017

Change or no change .. ?

I feel I reached a turning point in my life. I need change .. I need to find a job in what I like, music, fashion ... art
Be able to exercise my skills of Digital IT project Leader in these fields would be great .. 
I do not want to rush and do anything.
My son Paul has just turned 18. Next September, he goes into an engineering school for 5 years in Paris. 
I have to pay his studies. He will have to spend 6 months abroad in the 3rd year, probably in the United States.
I think and prepare a change .. to live better. I can't get up every morning to go to work in a bank anymore. It bothers me more and more.
To be continued ... 

Wednesday, July 26, 2017


I still have so much love for this boy .. 
I could learn anything about his past, it would not change my feelings for him... 
This love is so strong and so sincere.

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Talking To Myself (Official Video) - Linkin Park

I can't believe it ... 

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Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Wonderful Coldplay in Paris ...

Last night in Paris , in Stade de France, It was the last show of Head Full Of Dreams Coldplay Tour . What a show .. full of colours, lights and dreams .. It was an amazing show .. 

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And this first part with Tove Lo .. I loved .. I want to see her on stage another time .. for sure 

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Friday, July 14, 2017

.. feeling good ..

I feel good with this new hairstyle .. it's me.

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Beautiful Sunday

... Sunny Sunday .. 

Love from Berlin 😘

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Good night ...

After a long day of walking in the city and in the parks ..
Running and shopping only for me .. and walking with my dog .. 

Walking again tomorrow ? Probably .. My dog love this place .. 

Friday, July 7, 2017

Break time ...

It's so good to have time for myself. Lots of walks .. I did'nt run. Tomorrow I'll run. 
Time to take a step back and think quietly.

I'm in the best place for that ... 

Breakfast time .. Mmmmmhhh 

Tired tonight 
In the bathroom .. 

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Vacation ..

I rode all day to go to one of my favorite cities ... a few days here .. with my dog. 
I chose a hotel near a beautiful park, to run and do great walking with my dog...

my Instagram Story today

my Instagram Story today

Thursday, June 29, 2017

I miss BILLY ...

.. with this bad feeling I'll never see him again .. 💔

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Change time ...

I need your opinion ..

I want short hair .. Again ... 

Which one ? I have an idea .. 

Number #1 

Number #2

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Sunday time .. Paris

Sunday Outfit

Palais Garnier - Opéra 
Jardin du Luxembourg 

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Mood - Why is everything so heavy ?

I love this song .. Song of my last days ... 

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Bill in Paris ....

Bill is in Paris for the Fashionweek .. OMG 
I love my city .. But this city seems even more beautiful when he is there.

I'll finish my work tomorrow at the begining of the night at Boulevard St Germain .. I'll stop at my favorite Café for a drink ... Yes .. Weekend !!!

Paris was so hot today .. It's better now .. 

Paris - June 22, 2017

Sunday, June 18, 2017

Decision ..

To be honest, I didnt very well live the last Tokio Hotel tour, with my road-trip of 3 weeks. I nevertheless  loved the shows and the meetings with the band.  
But I felt very bad among the fans. I felt out of place. 
I did'nt understand their talking points about the band. I too often heard words about Bill, words that I didn't like at all.
I wanted that this tour stops.
I decided not to put myself any more in this situation. 
I'll continue to go to see the Tokio Hotel shows, at the back , with a beer and with those who come for the music. 
But I'm going to favor the events of Bill Kaulitz,  solo, with Billy. 
I'm going to continue and to develop my support for Bill Kaulitz and for Billy, by devoting to it even more my time and my money.
And this adventure I'll live it alone as I update alone, every day, my website and my Facebook page.
With this decision , I'm honest ... and I feel better ..
To follow ..

Monday, June 12, 2017

Still Breathing ..

Thank you Green Day for making my life better in this dark time .. Love U guys .. 💓

Saturday, June 10, 2017

Download festival - France - Day 1

Beautiful 1st Day in Download Festival France ... Blink-182 and Linkin Park . 
What a great Linkin Park show ... 

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Sunday, June 4, 2017

Best memories .. best energy

Every time I have doubts, I have to remember these moments so strong. I remember the beautiful energy which dominated each of these moments. 
I remember the light in his eyes .. I remember his shyness. (and mine .. 😕) .. 
I remember such beautiful things. I remember love .. 💓
And I should never forget that this was, is and will be .. forever .. 

Thursday, June 1, 2017

I love, I love , I love ...

I can't wait to have it in my hands ... 😍💓

Monday, May 29, 2017

Development ...

.. about my last post .. 

I love him so much . 💗

He's too nice. He can't say NO to people.

I always have the feeling that people take advantage of his kindness and his fame. Being seen with him matters a lot to people.
But I'm not sure what he's getting back to him.

Who of "his friends" promoted the Dream Machine album or the Billy EP? (on Instagram, twitter or facebook) .. 😟

I don't believe in the sincerity of some people close to him. And it makes me angry.

(I didn't come to terms with The Squad .. )

I'll never turn over a new leaf .. Bill took up too much space in my heart.... forever .. 💖

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Sunday, May 28, 2017

Annoyed ..

For 10 years, I enjoy talking about the one who fascinates me, through my website that I dedicated to him. 
And some nights, I have doubts .. because I don't want to speak on my site about people I don't like because these people don't like me.
It is a dilemma.

These nights when you wonder if it is not the time to turn over a new leaf..

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Monday, May 15, 2017

about my last weekend in Nice ..

What a beautiful weekend with my friends on the French Riviera .. and a Depeche Mode show in Nice .. 

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My favorite live .. 

et avec ma copine Jeanne .. 💓

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Wednesday, May 10, 2017


I miss him so much .. it's terrible .. 

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Monday, May 8, 2017

Bienvenue à mon nouveau Président

I am reassured and happy of this beautiful victory of Emmanuel Macron. I believe in him for a better Europe. A beautiful duo with Angela Merkel to make Europe better. 

He is young, ambitious, brilliant and passionate. And he works with his best ally, his wife Brigitte. She makes him even stronger. I love this couple . 

Vive l'Europe ! Vive la France : Liberté, Egalité, Fraternité !! 💓

Friday, May 5, 2017

Very anxious ..

I am very anxious about the presidential elections in my country ...
I want a free France .. I want a free Europe . I want France in Europe.
There is a risk for Europe .. I feel more European citizen than French .. 
Sunday I will vote for Emmanuel Macron ..For Europe, for democracy, for freedom, for France .. 

 I want him to be the next president of France.. 

Monday, May 1, 2017

Working on my site ..

I began this weekend a big update of the photo gallery of my site .. I have a lot of work because I'm very late. 
And while I make that, I think less that I miss terribly a person . 

My new gallery background .. : 

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

In love in Kazan ..

The return in Paris is difficult after this wonderful night in Kazan on April 23rd, 2017. I think I left my heart in Russia .. Bill is the sweetest person I know... In love with him .. forever 💖

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Saturday, April 22, 2017


What a beautiful city .. But it's cold ...

Monday, April 17, 2017

Lost in my memories ..

I spent the main part of the weekend writing in my Dream Machine Notebook. I didn't find time to write during the tour. I'm talking about my feelings in this Notebook. I have a lot to write.💖
I'm going to Russia next Friday. 
And I just realized that my next concert next Sunday will be my 70th Tokio Hotel concert.. Champagne .. no vodka .. 😉 or Champage at first and vodka (I'll be in Russia 😊 )
I also would like that the boys of Tokio Hotel write in my Dream Machine Notebook next Sunday especially Bill..

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Easy ...

I just uploaded yesterday this live of this beautiful song Easy of Tokio Hotel. It was last month at Olympia in Paris. 
I realize how the Dream Machine show of Tokio Hotel upsets me. I've never felt such an emotion before at a concert.
There is something rare about this show that I still have difficulty in describing.
A perfect harmony ...
I am happy to see this show again in 1 week. But I'm also afraid. Afraid of the aftershow . Afraid to say to them good bye again .. Afraid to say to him "take care of you!"
... then leave and be alone in a hotel room with the memories, my heart overflowing with love for him, blinded by a veil of tears .. 💝💗💖💘

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

YES ...

Thank You .. Thank You .. I don't know who to thank .. but thanks .. 💖 .. I got it ..