Marie's blog

March 1st in Copenhagen!

2012-02-29T22:56:00.003+01:00

2 years after the recording of this video, I feel always by watching it the same strange feeling! Have I to be happy, have I to cry, have I to leave? I don't know still today! And fortunately I stayed and I continued my crazy tour!
This story is very mysterious, I know. It is written for the moment, with the other stories, in a very private diary! Because today nobody consulted it.
One day maybe, I 'll publish all this, I don't know! In any case not now! This story could be called "the life is so complicated "

(To publish : maybe, but to Win money : Of course NO)

Music - Bush - Last album "The Sea of Memories"

2012-02-28T21:56:00.004+01:00

I discovered this album thanks to Bill, who answered me on the call VIP, that the last album which he bought, was the last album of Bush.
I listened to it, I liked a lot in the first listening and I bought. And it 's a real very favorite. I really like a lot.
The musical genre is alternative rock. When I listen to the album, with some songs, I have the feeling to listen to U2 and sometimes Linkin Park. And it 's rather different on the other songs.

I like very much the songs as "The Mirror of The signs" . The sound is really great for this song. I like "The sound of the winter", "All Night Doctors" (I love piano) , Baby Comes home, Stand up, Ghost ...... I think, I love all the songs!!

THANK YOU BILL ♥

Day and night in Paris - Madness

2012-02-22T20:38:00.012+01:00

My best friend Nathalie came to spend a few days in Paris! She is a painter and we worked 1 full day for the creation of her blog. We also spent a day in Paris, followed by a night of madness! I really had fun! I forgot a moment all which worries me at the moment! Some photos of this day!

Paris - Montmartre

Marie at the restaurant " Chez Marie " :-)

Subway

In the subway !

Happy Hours in a bar near Bastille - At the beginning !!

Happy Hours - at the end.... :-)

Giggle !!!!!

And the night !!

Thank you guys of Tokio Hotel !

2012-02-18T20:34:00.004+01:00

Thank you guys of Tokio Hotel for your answer on VIP Call. I 'm really very satisfied that you answered this question in particular!
And as I have the same musical tastes than Bill, I have just bought Bush's last album! And my god it 's so good! I like very much! Thank you Bill!

My question !

Their answer :

VIPcall TH 17.02.2012 by mariebillk

Good Morning Paris in Starbucks

2012-02-17T21:33:00.005+01:00

Every morning, before the work, I spend 30 in 45 minutes in Starbucks of Paris Opéra. This place is so amazing! I 'm alone with my friend, the coffee! And I think! Sometimes I update Bill's biography, sometimes I write in my diary about the person who fascinates me, BK! And sometimes as today, I connect on BTK App with my IPad and I comment! I like this private moment! I need of it!

TOKIO HOTEL VIP CALL - Interview for Love

2012-02-14T19:03:00.005+01:00

I would like to know with these questions if for love, the guys of Tokio Hotel 'd be able to do something which they don't like to usually.

1) Would you be able to stop smoking for love ?
2) Bill ! For love would you be able to eat a plate full of broccolis ?
3) Georg ! For love would you be able tu cut your hair ?
4) Would you be able to attend Katie Perry's concert for love?
5) Gustav! For love, would you be able to wait for having long hair (like Georg) ?
6) Would you be able to stop the music for love? To stop your job?
7) Bill and Tom! Would you be able to live separtely for the love of another person ?
8) Would you be able to accept some infidelities for love?

I had a special question for Tom, but I didn't want to ask it with VIP CALL, for fear of being censored. Then I ask it here.
9) Tom! For love would you be able to become her sexual slave?

Happy Valentine's day !!!

My birthday present!!

2012-02-10T21:18:00.003+01:00

My username : "MarieBK" on BTK. I wanted "Marie"! But it was already used.

Birthday today !!!

2012-02-09T20:19:00.003+01:00

I worked today. I lunched with my brother who waited for me at about 12 am in front of the building where I work. My brother who lives in Nancy and who works in Metz, manages always to be in Paris the day of my birthday. He's really sweet!
My facebook page updated during the day with the wishes of my friends, from Asia, Europe, US and Canada.
I had to take my Ipad2 this evening in my shop SFR. I ordered it last week. But my shop was closed when I came back from my work. It 'll be for tomorrow. And BTK too .... :-)

And surprise when I came back at home this evening, after a meeting at Paul's middle school. These roses offered by Paul and Julie! So cute!

I still dream about black roses.... A day ... probably ... But I love roses ... !

Sehr kalt heute in Paris! - Zumba at home

2012-02-05T22:27:00.004+01:00

It 's too much cold to run outside! I wanted to dance at home!
An Alien dance Zumba and Loca ( Shakira).

My new sports outfit!

2012-02-04T19:27:00.003+01:00

It 's really too much cold to go to run to the wood! Today I went to sporting room! 45 minutes on treadmill and 1 hour dancing zumba, with my new T-shirt!! Alien practises sport! I like! Do you like my new tee-shirt ? I made it! The only one!

Movie - Intouchables

2012-01-29T19:27:00.002+01:00

18,3 million members of the audience in France since its release on November 2nd, 2011 and already 2 millions in Germany (release on January 5th, 2012).
I wanted to understand why! I understood. A funny movie, moving , an incredible human relation, a real inspiration, a magnificent music, and 2 actors whom I like very much. A great movie!

I really liked this music with piano, at the beginning of the movie.

Title : “Fly” (Ludovico Einaudi)

Trailer with english subtitles

And Trailer in German - I think it's better than in french!
Ziemlich beste Freunde - Offizieller Trailer [HD][Deutsch]

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At the end of the movie, I cried (not because of the movie), but because I thought for a person very important for me, whom I miss more and more. The time is really too long!
(Nothing to do with the movie!)

Hairdresser today ....... and I!

2012-01-28T21:25:00.001+01:00

My hairdresser always understands what I want. I 'll never change!

French Movies

2012-01-26T21:11:00.006+01:00

Sorry for this silence, I didn't very want to update this blog this week. I need to isolate myself, in my books, in the music... and with a lot of work!
The weekend comes. Tomorrow, I go out to Paris to the theater with friends. But this weekend I want to see 2 French movies, successful movies of 2011 and 2012.

"Intouchables" with François Cluzet and Omar Sy. I like much Omar Sy.

And The Artist with Jean Dujardin and Bérénice Béjo!
(10 nominations for Oscar 2012! Great)

I have the feeling to see living again Charlie Chaplin!

Frustration, disappointment.... Need to escape

2012-01-22T10:22:00.008+01:00

Frustration : Bill's photo was published on BTK and I can't see it! Yes I 'm deprived! I didn't think that it would so annoy me. You can laugh about that people, or lecture me if you want. Bill Kaulitz is a big passion. I assume and this morning I 'm seriously deprived.

Disappointement : Marie, too naive and too stupid whom I am, I sometimes have difficulty opening eyes to some persons. I am not certainly going to go into detail on internet, nor somewhere else moreover. I believe that many persons make fun of me for several years and I want to speak about it with nobody. Then get off!

Need to escape : A big need to escape! Break Internet! I want to have a walk during hours in Paris! Theater, Museum, exhibitions, cinema .... !
And yesterday, I bought 4 books. A good way to escape!

I 'm above all going to run in the wood during 1 hour and 30 minutes. That 's going to aerate my mind!

I like this dress!

2012-01-21T14:26:00.003+01:00

Collection Herbst / winter 2012-2013 of Kilian Kerner! On Kilian Kerner facebook .
This dress has all that I like in a dress. Black. Silvery. The cup close to the body! The length! The originality behind.... J'adore!!

Weariness!!

2012-01-19T22:25:00.003+01:00

I feel weary today of the life! Bear every day the persons that I don't like and being far from those who I love! I need to escape tonight.

Nice video ! Attractive landscapes without anybody! Exactly what I need! I want to be alone in a desert! With many many books, to escape me more and more!

Who dares to say still that Tokio Hotel is dead ?

2012-01-16T22:47:00.006+01:00

The application of the twins of Tokio Hotel came out on itunes today. The servers of the appli did not resist with the crowd of the fans who rushed to buy it on itunes store.
No people! Tokio Hotel isn't dead and Aliens ( their fans) either. The application is classified in 2nd position on Itunes store this evening. And I don't still have it. I cry!!! In 3 weeks, for my birthday, I offer myself IPhone 4s + BTK.

How the admin of BTK Twins didn't plan servers correctly sized for this application? He didn't know the madness of Aliens maybe.
The next time, recruit me twins as Admin. I would feel much more motivated to manage your appli that the app of the bank where I work.

Amazing video - drawing

2012-01-15T19:53:00.006+01:00

When I watched this video, I thought of Tom Kaulitz. I think that he would like watching it. Indeed I saw that he was interested in the art of painting on the BTK application. Probably for that !
In any case, the guy draws really well!

Moreover by reading the exchanges between Bill and Tom on the Alien Wall of their application, a question that I wonder for a long time returned to me. But why the boys need to measure their s.. ( their tower)? It 's really a male trick, that!
Moreover, I always wondered if the twins had the same length for their "tower". It ‘s the question which I would like to ask to the twins Kaulitz, but not on the VIP CALL, I ‘m going be kicked out.
At the same time, it seems to me that the size of the "tower" is proportional to the size of the person. Bill is taller than Tom. Oh ...... poor Tom!
Moreover, my cat which is called Tom, has a small tail!

But of all the ways, us the women, we don't care of this size. The important it ‘s that it works well! And so that it works well, it 's necessary to have a lot of creativity, girls! There are some very effective tricks!
And yes! action girls, no passivity in these moments. It ‘s the secret of a perfect sexual agreement! Well stop! My blog is going to pass in the category X if I continue!

Tom! Ich bete dich an!

Photo of the day !!

2012-01-14T14:52:00.010+01:00

I have of course many Bill Kaulitz's photos and I post here those which touch me particularly. This photo date from today. Bill took this photo with his mobile and published it on BTK application.
He is really beautiful ! But on this photo, what me touch, it’s the eyes of Bill, this look ! Then I ‘m going to tell here, what I have in my mind when I look at this photo and look at his eyes!

The eyes (the look) is the reflection of the soul.

In this look (in these eyes), I read a big sensibility, a big sensuality, a big generosity, a maturity mixed with a childish naivety, an intellectual wealth, an artistic wealth, a self-assurance mixed with a shyness … Bill is complex! A real paradox! So he 's the perfect man for me, with his qualities and his faults! In any case Bill has really a man's appearance today! But he keep his child's soul.

This man-child perfectionist really touches me very much!

Hedi Slimane !!

2012-01-14T00:59:00.006+01:00

I tell about Hedi Salimane because Bill said today that he was his favorite designer. What I think about this?
It ‘s so logical! I thus take advantage of this information to explain my passion for Bill Kaulitz, this other one for David Bowie and this passion which I also have for this departed composer who is Mozart. We can wonder, but what is the common point between these 3 persons? It 's finally rather simple! What I like about these 3 person, it ‘s that they dare to bring new in various domains, in the music, in the style, with the risk of being hated. Whatever of more logical Bill is fascinated by Hedi Salimane.
This 43-year-old designer, who worked with Yves Saint-Laurent and Christian Dior since created his own label by daring and renewing the male style! This lover of the black and white and also the big photographer, with a magnificent collection of incredible shoot! New, something ever seen! All that Bill likes and all which fascinates Marie also! When I hear today that Bill likes the style and the work of Hedi Salimane, I 'm reassured. Bill is forever the same complex boy that I love! Here 's photos of Hedi Salimane, More Photo here:

Message for Tokio Hotel !

2012-01-12T22:30:00.004+01:00

Come back ! Come back! Come back!

Come back ! Come back! Come back!
Come back ! Come back! Come back!
Come back ! Come back !
Come back ! Come back !
Come back !
Come back !
Come back !
Come back !
Come back !
Come back !
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Come back !!

Marie (depressive Alien!).... ;-)

TOKIO HOTEL VIP CALL - Interview Technicolor

2012-01-11T21:29:00.002+01:00

My second interview ! Interview technicolor !

1) What makes you become green with rage?
2) What makes you become red with shame?
3) What gives you a blue fear!
4) What makes you become pink of happiness?
5) What makes you laugh yellow?

I 'll begin tomorrow with the interview "First time". The interview "for love" on februray 14th (Valentine's day)!

Ohne Liebe bin ich nichts !

2012-01-09T22:27:00.006+01:00

Some days, as today, I wonder what is the sense of my life!
Go to work every day like a robot!?
All this to live without love !
When days are hard to live, I miss this love so much!
And nevertheless, he is so present in my mind and in my heart.
Why him? Why not another?
Why him? Why not a person I meet every day?
Why I can’t answer to some persons, another sentence than: " no, I am sorry! A person takes up my heart full-time! "
Why he continues taking up my thoughts and my heart for several years.
Why? Why? Why?
Why that doesn’t ever stop?
And why when I listen to the album of Nena " Willst du mit mir gehn" I think only of him!

"…The inner values count ! ! " Most probably ! He said that ! I agree !

Es tut mir weh, wenn ich dich seh
Weil ich das, was du sagen willst,gar nicht versteh
Und ich kann nicht denken und ich kann nichts tun
Ich will dich vergessen, ohne Liebe bin ich nichts

Dadadada dadadada

Und was ich weiß, ist: ohne Liebe bin ich nichts
Und was ich weiß: ohne Liebe bin ich nichts

Dadadada dadadada

Weil ich es weiß: Ohne Liebe bin ich nichts

Und wenn der Tag sich endlos neigt
Auch wenn es nie mehr wieder kommt, weiß ich es bleibt
Wenn ich bei dir nicht schlafen kann
Dann komm ich trotzdem immer wieder bei uns an

Es tut mir weh, wenn ich dich seh
Es tut mir weh, wenn ich dich seh und ich jetzt geh
Wie gerne will ich das alles vergessen
Ich will wieder schlafen und auch wieder essen
Wie gerne wär ich wieder bei dir
Wir wissen beide ohne Liebe sind wir nichts
Und was ich weiß ist ohne Liebe bin ich nichts

This video is incredible!! Watch it!

2012-01-07T21:01:00.006+01:00

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TOKIO HOTEL VIP CALL - Interview "Upside Down"

2012-01-06T20:42:00.005+01:00

I have fun with the VIP CALL of Tokio Hotel! I ask all the questions which I would like to ask them, with a question a day!
This week, I made a special interview, way Ardisson, the interview upside down.
I am inspired for it of Thierry Ardisson's broadcast which was broadcasted in the TV, many years ago at night from Saturday till Sunday. I liked this broadcast. I liked the interviews of Ardisson. A lot of people doesn't like him. I like this presenter. I find him frank! It 's the main part!

Here is my interview upside down - Tokio Hotel

1) What faults has to have a woman to charm you ?
2) Which is the insult that you like the most ?
3) What is the compliment which irritates you the most?
4) What is the talent which you wouldn't like to have ?
5) Which sentence don't you ever say to yourselves ?
6) What object would you like that we steal you ?
7) Why would you be able to refuse your best love story ?

Nice ! No ? I would like the guys of Tokio Hotel answer the 1st and 7th questions.

I prepare other interviews!
Interview First time!
Interview Last time!
Interview Technicolor!
Interview for love!
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Etc.....

Book : Les Ecureuils de Central Park sont tristes le lundi - Part 2

2012-01-04T20:03:00.003+01:00

I have already spoken to you about this book. I so liked the writing and how the author sees the human relation. I feel so close to what this author tells about the human relation!

And I wanted to share with you this extract which touched me a lot.

" ...... The smile of....
The smile of a self-assured man, but not too much …
Self-assured with confidence, without arrogance …
The smile of a generous man who embraces the world then looks at you and offers you this world …
Only for you. As if there was only you who deserved to receive this world.
As if, over the world, there was you, you and you …
A smile as we see two or three times in the life. We turn around and we know that we 'll never forget this man ….."

Marie : "It is so realistic!"
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Other subject: BTK App of Bill and Tom!
I have no access to the application. I have a blackberry! And I feel so deprived that I harass blackberry so that Smartphone / BLackberry accepts the Android applications. It 's a project of blackberry, but not still operational!
In 1 month I change for IPhone / IPad if App BTK is OK! Otherwise , I change for Android.
I want to live the moment when Bill and Tom post their news. That can seem to you stupid, but for me it 's so important!

Souvenirs of journey !!

2012-01-02T21:20:00.005+01:00

I have to stop buying mugs everywhere where I travel! I don't know any more where to put them!

Especially as I always drink my hot drinks in the same! This one! I don't know why?! Lol

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When I listen to my questions in the VIPcal, my voice is too strange. I try to articulate well, because we don't really understand what say the fans by the phone. I articulate and I speak loudly! It 's too odd when we listen!

Happy New Year !!

2011-12-31T17:54:00.005+01:00

I wish you an Happy New Year 2012 !
Love, Happiness, Health and success for everyone for 2012 !!

Marie

Weekend finally - I'm Happy

2011-12-30T21:11:00.005+01:00

This workweek was too hard! Everybody was on vacation. I was able to progressed my work! But the Week-end is welcome! Yesterday evening, dinner in Paris with my family! Eiffel Tower!! Of course ! What I like Paris! And what I like my family!!

Who comes to spend the night of New Year with me? The program : Theater in Paris, then...

Theater in Paris yesterday evening - "Le Cirque invisible"

2011-12-28T23:17:00.002+01:00

I was yesterday evening, at the theater of "Le Rond Pont des Champs Elysées" in Paris to see this strange direction, but fantastic and brilliant " Le Cirque Invisible ".
Only 2 actors, Victoria Chaplin and Jean-Baptiste Thierrée, a couple in the life also.Victoria Chaplin is the daughter of Charlie Chaplin. She is extraordinary. 60 years and nevertheless she seems be 20 years old on stage (flexibility, suppleness, elegance and imposing presence). A great artist. I think that all Chaplin has this artistic exceptional talent! In front of them, you just want to watch them moving! And the magic acts!
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"Experience the enchanting and exquisite theatrical spectacle of Le Cirque Invisible this summer. With an infectious sense of fun and whimsical grace, Jean-Baptiste Thierree and Victoria Chaplin mesmerise adults and children alike with sublime illusions and fantastical transformations."

Family Christmas

2011-12-25T21:36:00.011+01:00

Christmas with my family! Great Christmas! Here are some photos!

My Christmas tree, beautiful , No ?! (in the house of my parents)

My dog was happy with his friend Volga, an adorable girl dog!

Volga and me!

My dog and Me!

Nathalie and me! Nathalie is really a friend very close to me! But we can never keep a straight face together! just madness! I like that!

My cat, Tom is happy with his christmas present!!!

Nathalie and Paul!!

Merry Christmas !!

Tomorrow, back to Paris!!

Merry Christmas!!

2011-12-24T14:03:00.002+01:00

I wish you a Merry Christmas to you and to your families!!

A beautiful girl with my little dog Bill !!

Christmas for my pets

2011-12-23T15:21:00.009+01:00

I like going shopping for my animals in Epinal, in my born city because all the German brands for animals are sold.
I found an Advent calendar for my dog Bill, with cakes in the shape of bone for every day. It 's really funny! I like!

Christmas presents for my cats!

Candies for my cats!

Candies for my children and my nephews.

Bill, my dog : "I like what makes cooks me my mom."
Mashed potato and turkey cutlet with the cream! It's Christmas!

Photo of the day : I love very much the look of Bill on this photo, these eyes!I like what this look expresses! Once again!

Photo @BTK twins Application

Another question today in the VIP Call Tokio Hotel (See the widget on the right of my blog)

Rest day at home

2011-12-21T21:15:00.003+01:00

After the works in my house during 3 days, I have just spent a quiet day at home. Tomorrow I leave by car, with dog, cats and children to Epinal, to my parents for Christmas. I have just to repaint my main room and today, I had an interesting proposition for the purchase of my house. The persons buy my house in the sale price, if they obtain the agreement of the city hall of my city for the works of raising which they envisage. It 's very positive. I 'll give my answer at the beginning of 2012. I have to be sure that the city hall gives its agreement.

Me today!

I have to ask my 2nd question in the VIPcall. See the widget. Tomorrow I begin to ask funnier questions.

Works at the house ended !

2011-12-20T20:51:00.006+01:00

I have just ended this evening to repaint my main room. I have 4 visits in the week (2 tomorrow and 2 on Thursday). I had to finish everything today. So it's good!

Bye bye red !

Finished!

I like the BTK application of Bill and Tom. Through their application, they are spontaneous, as I like seeing them. They are themselves. Bill seems to have fun with this application. I like very much that. I can't have it for the moment. I have a blackberry. But I 'm soon going to buy an IPad. I need it for my job.
In the meantime, I asked my first question in the VIPcall.
I didn't understand very well when I had to speak. It was the first one. I have many questions for the guys. At least 1 a day. I have just created a widget on my blog, where I 'm going to put the links of my questions in the VIPcall of Tokio Hotel.

Works in my house today!

2011-12-18T21:27:00.003+01:00

My house is for sale for 3 months, and isn’t sold still today. I had confided the sale exclusively to a property agency for 3 months. But it was an error. I am now going to put it on sale in several agencies and I 'm also going to take care of this on Internet (With the site PAP, from private individual to Private individual) I had a lot of visit, and what seems to bother the visitors, it ‘s my main room. People finds it too small. I think that it 's too much personalized, with red and grey walls.

I am thus going to take advantage of my vacation before Christmas to repaint it with more neutral tones. I have in no way the motivation. Painting your house to sell it, it ‘s not very rewarding. Wish me courage my friends ! ! I need it! !

P.S.: I ‘m going to ask my first question tonight in the VIPcall of Tokio Hotel. I paid for 3 months and I 've not found time yet to play, nevertheless I have many questions.
Tonight, I ‘m going to ask to the boys if they could come to help me to repaint my room between 2 composings of song, it would be nice! No? And if they could bring the band of D. Jost, it would be better.

No I make fun, my question is different ! Of course!

Düsseldorf - Paris : Durch den Monsun

2011-12-16T21:07:00.004+01:00

Durch den Monsun or Monsoon, the song suited for my return travel from Düsseldorf to Paris today! Storm, rain and wind! I avoided the snow, which falls tonight in Belgium!

I 'm satisfied because I 'm concentrated on Bill's biography. I didn't end, but I was able to update what I had already written from 1989 till 2008. I wrote 2009 and practically ended 2010. I have to write 2011. I 'm then going to read again everything several times and to integrate in it my personal comments. I can then publish it on the site, but in French for the moment.

15th December - I am nostalgic

2011-12-15T19:40:00.004+01:00

1 year passed since this December 15th, 2010 in Tokyo! An eternity! But strangely time passes very quickly, too quickly.
When we are 20 years old, we think that we 'll have time to do all that we want during the life. Today, the future scares me!
I 'm alone tonight in my hotel room in Düsseldorf. No concert tonight! I would have had to stay one night furthermore in Magdeburg. I felt good there!
Tomorrow I go early to Paris, to find Paul, Julie, Bill, Tom and Lova. (And Gregor and Günther)
............. dann wird alles gut !!
And, I don’t like this hotel room!!

Bill! I miss you so much !!!!

I drove from Magdeburg to Düsseldorf listening to the German best off of Tokio Hotel! That, it's really very good!!

Magdeburg - Weihnachtsmarkt !

2011-12-14T20:35:00.010+01:00

I walked a lot today in Magdeburg and I visited the Christmas market in front of the city hall, but especially the historic Christmas market. I found that really magnificent.

The historic Christmas market!

I like how Germans are preparing Christmas! The atmosphere in these Christmas markets remembers me the city where I was born and where I have grows: Epinal in the northeast of France.
In Paris everything is too much in the preparations of Christmas, only business! In Paris, Christmas doesn't have a soul anymore!

I bought this heart in gingerbread! I like! But my hotel room smell sweet gingerbread! I have the feeling to be in a store of candies. I think I 'll sleep very well!

And I wrote a lot. I would like to stay still a few days because I am concentrated on Bill's biography and I didn't end. But I progessed a lot.

Tschüß! Tomorrow, I go to Düsseldorf!

Magdeburg - 13 december

2011-12-13T20:46:00.010+01:00

A little shopping, drive in the surroundings and then, return in the Hotel to write.

I bought "Weinachtskuchen", (Christmas cakes ). I don't know if this cake is good! I'll eat it at Christmas with my family.

And I wrote and I write now ! I like having time to write this Bill's biography. I like putting on paper these words with the passion which livens up me. Bill so inspires me!

I 'm very careful when I drive in Magdeburg. I pay attention to trams and to Gustav! (Lol)

Reached Magdeburg tonight!

2011-12-12T19:18:00.005+01:00

I arrived at Best Western Hôtel of Magdeburg at the beginning of the evening.

Magdeburg by night!

After this long car journey, I very wanted to drink a beer. No mini bar in my room, no bar in the Hotel and I don't want to go out this evening.
I am in Germany and I have no beer to drink! Lol! It 's not possible!
I remember moreover that 1 year ago, I had many difficulties finding a sushi restaurant in Tokyo. There is more sushi restaurant next to my work in Paris than in Tokyo! Sure!
But I 'm not there to drink, I have to write above all! Finally, I am in Germany all the same! Even if the beer can help me to write! No? Tschüß!

1 year ago, today - flight to Tokyo

2011-12-11T18:34:00.010+01:00

1 year ago today, Julie and I took a flight to Tokyo, an Airbus A380. What a memory this journey!

The subway of Tokyo - The subway, the most clean of the world!

And in Tokyo, there was also Aliens! Adorable girls who so miss me!

And then in Tokyo, 1 year ago, there was these 4 boys .... I miss them so also!

Tomorrow I go to Magdeburg !!!

I am on vacation – Finally

2011-12-09T20:33:00.003+01:00

Here is my princess! Lova! It 's a magnificent cat!

I 'm on vacation for 2 weeks. I go alone for the weekend to Epinal to my parents. Then still alone, on Monday, I go to Magdeburg. I stay in Magdeburg to Thursday, December 15th. I go then to Düsseldorf! No concert of Nena! I ‘ll go back to Paris for the weekend of December 17th. My priority this week: the writing of Bill's biography.
I ‘ll go then for Christmas to Epinal in my family, with Paul and Julie and my animals. Paul wants a drum kit for Christmas and wants to have drum lessons from January, 2012!! Gustav I need help!!
Paul has a friend who plays guitar and another one who plays bass. They look for a singer.
I would have preferred that he chooses the singing. The microphone is easier to put in his room than the drum kit. But Paul want to learn to play drum since one year.
My piano interests nobody. Only I and my cat Tom.

I ‘ll post here photos of my Germanic journey! Tschüss!

I have just received my boots Steve Madden. J’adore ! ! !

Web awards 2011 - Bill Kaulitz Trophy

2011-12-05T21:31:00.006+01:00

Bill Kaulitz is the great winner of the Web awards 2011 contest on the website STAR PLANETE. He won beforehand this summer in the category " International Male Artist " without difficulties, in front of J. Bieber and Jonas Brothers. Then he was set against the winners of the 10 others categories during 10 weeks. The battle was very difficult, but many persons supported him by voting day and night without letting up, so that he ‘s the number 1. Star Planete sent me this trophy, so that I deliver to Bill as soon as possible. I explained them that it ‘ll be difficult to deliver this trophy to Bill at the moment, while the group withdrew from the public life to work in studio. In 2012 …… probably!

Meanwhile I have this trophy at home!

But no Bill! Meanwhile, I delivered it to my dog, Bill! He likes it in no way! He doesn’t want it ! Lol !

Quiet weekend at home! 03 december !

2011-12-03T21:29:00.005+01:00

Quiet weekend at home! Yesterday evening, I went to the theater with the group amateur of the bank where I work. We spent a magnificent evening. (Restaurant, theater and meeting with the comedians). The group suggested me joining them for their next play. My rock look seems to interest them for a role. I would really like very much playing the theater, but I am afraid of making a commitment. I have the hope that 2012 will be Tokio Hotel. I ‘ll accept if we are 2 on the same role. To follow ….

I bought for my weekend 2 music magazines, 1 DVD of Pink Floyd (on 1982-2012, the 30 years of The Wall) and the album Comeback of Scorpions.

The magazine MODZIK speaks about fashion and about music. I like very much and I buy it very often.
The magazine " first Rock ", is a new French magazine about rock, which I have just discovered. A great report of Bowie ( 1969-1972 ) from Space Oddity to Ziggy Stardust) Bowie on the cover, and. This magazine is really well designed. There are also articles about Peter Gabriel, Coldplay, Lenny Kravitz, Ryan Adams, Pink Floyd etc.

And then Nena who is sick, postponed her tour of December in April, 2012. My ticket is valid now for April 27th, 2012 in Düsseldorf. I ‘ll be there. But I reserved my small German week in December, 2011. I ‘m going to go thus all the same to Magdeburg on December 12th for 3 days and 15 to Düsseldorf.
I have Bill's biography to write and I want to write it in Germany.

Get well soon Nena!

Book : Les Ecureuils de Central Park sont tristes le lundi

2011-11-29T21:40:00.010+01:00

The Squirrels of Central Park are sad on Mondays of Katherine Pancol.

" Often the life has fun. It offers us a diamond, hidden under a subway ticket or the fallen of a curtain. Lain in ambush in a word, a glance, an idiot. It ‘s necessary to pay attention on details. They sow our life with small pebbles and guide us. Rough people, pressing people, those who wear boxing gloves or make spatter the gravel, ignore details. They want heavy, impressive, beading things, they don’t want to lose one minute to bend for a sou, a straw, the hand of a trembling man. But if we bend, if we stop the time, we discover diamonds in a tense hand … And the life is never sad. Neither Saturday, nor on Sunday, nor on Mondays … "

This novel of Katherine Pancol is led drum beating with generosity, happiness, humor and the optimism which reconciles with the life..

" There is probably a life which I ‘ll eventually live really, no? " Bernard-Marie Koltès.
Marie: I could too ask me this question.

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I extracted some sentences of this novel, sentences which I liked and which I share.

Book : " … To want to forget somebody, it 's to think of him all the time... "
Marie: my god! I agree!

Book : " … The squirrel is sad in the big park … Especially on Mondays, when all people of the weekend left. When we launch him no more peanuts or hazelnuts … "
Marie: this explains the title of the book.

Book : " … I would dive back certainly, but I would remember the happiness which you gave me and I would live thanks to this memory … "
Marie: I don't only want to remember the happiness which you gave me, I want to live it again and again. With you ! Come back baby !

Book : " … Because since I was small, I like the beauty of the Parisian buildings and to walk in Paris is for me as to walk on a work of art .. "
Marie: I completely agree.

Book : " … The love it is as roller coasters, that rises and that comes down, that changes all the time. At a moment, I ‘m sure that he loves me and I dance of enjoyment, at another moment, I don’t know any more and I want to sit down on the ground and to die.. "
Marie: I add that being in love, it ‘s to doubt all the time!

Book : " … Put yourself in his position! It ‘s always necessary to put itself in the position of the other if we want to understand … "
Marie: certainly, but not easy sometimes!

Book : " … She imagines her beautiful, erudite, strong. She associates her the Parisian charm and the elegance, the assurance of these French which seem free, freed from everything, which know how to monopolize the heart of a man.. "
Marie: the image of the French, and especially the Parisian. But everything is only appearance!

Book: " … Now I know … It ‘s not a temporary emotion. It ‘s the love which is going to consume me. I suppose that it ‘s what had to happen... "
Marie: it ‘s also what I said 4 years ago, soon 5.

Book : ".. I said to myself that it was dangerous to love somebody because this person was going to turn around against me and to give me a big slap in the face.. "

Book: ".. A nothing grazed her and made her happy. A mere nothing demoralize her or raised in her a wave of hope and heat. I am an immense blotting paper, she says herself to encourage to smile. An immense blotting paper full of stains … "
Marie: I think also of being an immense blotting paper full of stains!

I Won't Say I'm In Love !

2011-11-28T20:12:00.003+01:00

[Meg:]
If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!

[Muses:] Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of

[Meg:]
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no

[Muses:]
You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh

[Meg:]
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh

[Muses:]
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad

[Meg:]
WRONG: No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no

[Muses:]
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love

[Meg:]
This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love

[Muses:]
You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love

[Meg:]
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it

[Muses:]
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love

[Meg:]
Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love

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When you fall in love, you never expect it! You don't want to believe in it and you don't want that happens! Because it 's always complicated! Then you are at once happy and unhappy! And you say to yourself that with the time you'll forget this! OK but when?? It's really so long!

Blaise Pascal : "Le coeur a ses raisons que la raison ne connaît point"
" the heart has its reasons that reason knows nothing of "

Theater - Fantaisie barock (&feeling)

2011-11-27T21:00:00.004+01:00

I hesitated this evening to write a post about my mood or about the last play which I saw. Finally I decided to tell to you about my humor (need for change) next time.
"Andromaque Fantaisie Barock" is the last crazy creation of the company "Les Epis noirs" (the Black Ears). This moved company revisits on stage the famous text of Racine proposing a free interpretation of the intrigue and a version very rock 'n' roll of the alexandrine. A clashing show to discover to the "Vingtième Théâtre" theater, to Paris, until January 15th, 2012. I like very much these direction of old classics as Racine, Molière in a rock'n Roll way.

Scorpions in Paris Bercy - Great concert

2011-11-24T23:23:00.003+01:00

Great concert of Scorpions in Paris Bercy (sold out). It was just amazing!!

3 of my videos!!

Woman in black !!

2011-11-23T16:12:00.005+01:00

Today no work! Haidresser! Marie in black with Morgan pants, skirt and sweater!! Tonight I go to Paris Bercy, to see Scorpions. My last concert at Paris Bercy was another German band in April 2010!

An idiot Alien !!

2011-11-20T19:48:00.007+01:00

I'm an idiot Alien !!! Why ?

The fans of Tokio Hotel are called Aliens.

The fans of Green Day are called Idiots!

So I 'm an idiot Alien. Or an idiot of Alien! Or an alienated idiot! ??? Who I am ?? I 'm an Alien before being an Idiot! It 's sure!! So I think I'm an idiot Alien!! I don't know how we call the fans of David Bowie. If somebody knows, say me. I must know who I 'm really!!!

I'm an idiot Aliens !!!

Message to my family: I am fine! Don't worry. I 'm very fine! See you ! LOL

Weekend - sleep in the morning - Not really!!

2011-11-19T20:16:00.008+01:00

I wake up almost every day at about 6 am when I work. And the weekend I would like to sleep a little in the morning. But when I open eyes this morning, I see that:

(2 starving cats! LOL!) 2 cats which love me and which wait for me! 2 cats which want that I give to them to eat!! While my small Bill sleeps very friendly next to me.
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I spent the night with Tom Kaulitz.! Yes! I explain! I dreamed about Tom Kaulitz. I rarely see the guys of Tokio Hotel in my dreams. I have just a magnificent dream with Bill, alone in a concert hall and Bill alone on stage.
This night I dreamed that I was in a open air party and that I spent the evening (finally the night) with Tom to talk about everything. I put the world to rights with Tom Kaulitz this night!
I found that he had full of principles! And I said it to him!! Lol!
But why Tom? I always thought that I could spend nights to put the world to rights with Bill! That's sure!!

Halloween 2011

2011-11-18T20:31:00.003+01:00

I like this drawing! It is funny and really very beautiful. Poor Tom! Not very easy every day to live with Bill! Lol

Theater : Les 39 marches - direction Eric Métayer

2011-11-17T18:53:00.007+01:00

Marie : "I went to the theater yesterday evening to see " Les 39 marches ", of Alfred Hitchcock's movie " steps 39 ", direction of Eric Métayer. This show is played actually in the theater " La Bruyère " in the 9th district of Paris. "

This show is a pure madness, a small masterpiece of craziness. In London and in New York, it knows a big success.In Paris now , a real success too. " Les 39 marches " or « 39 steps », it ‘s a movie, in black and white, signed by the great Hitchcock. remember yourselves, a man tries to thwart only a devilish plot which puts the world in danger. By appropriating it, the theater delivers us a version in Technicolor and relief. Not need to wear 3D glasses, the comedians take care of all the special effects. An exploit because they are only four on stage! In France, few artists are able to swim as fishes in this comic river. There was at least one, Eric Métayer. He possesses the madness, the poetry and the necessary sense of the comic for this genre. His direction is of a terrible efficiency. It goes fast, very fast. The framework of the movie was literally respected, with pursuit races, changes of places and even monster of Loch Ness. We find the obsolete irony there which gives it the charm.

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Marie : "I like very much the theater. Rooms are small. What makes possible a real contact with the actors. It 's little as be in the first rows in concerts. We feel the real intimacy with the artists. These exchanges are very enriching .
" Les 39 marches " is a big success in Paris. The performance of the actors is exceptional.
And nevertheless yesterday evening, I didn't manage to concentrate on the play. My thoughts were too strong, always of the same boy.
In the book which I read at present of Katherine Pancol, it 's written " … To want to forget somebody, it 's to think of him all the time … "
It is perfectly true!! "

DAVID BOWIE - DEAD MAN WALKING LIVE

2011-11-13T19:16:00.002+01:00

I like the rhythm of this song! This song boosts me!

"Dead Man Walking" is a song written by David Bowie and Reeves Gabrels and released as single from the 1997 album Earthling.

A great acoustic live with David Bowie and Reeves Gabrels !

Paris by night

2011-11-12T21:01:00.007+01:00

I like the Parisian nights with friends. Last night restaurant, theater, then to have a drink in a nightclub to finish the night.

Mojito ......

And a one-man show with Guy Carlier in the studio of the Champs Elysées. In the life there are few persons whom you meet and who leave a mark forever. Guy Carlier is now one of these persons. Great meeting.

Balmain | Spring Summer 2012

2011-11-10T21:09:00.004+01:00

Definitively, Ballmain is my favorite fashion designer. I want all the jackets and all the pants of this show.

I like very much these clothes! Congratulations Mr. Olivier Rousteing!!

I like very much these pants!

Bill Kaulitz - Angel

2011-11-06T18:46:00.003+01:00

I didn't manage to sleep last night, then I made this video with photos which I extracted from my videos of the Humanoid City tour in 2010.
This beautiful song "Angel" of Aerosmith seemed to me perfect to accompany these photos, with words so close to my thoughts!

My little family

2011-11-05T20:51:00.008+01:00

My son Paul has just given me his annual photo of school. On all these school photos, Paul is really very beautiful. This boy is photogenic. Some photos of Paul in school!

I live very much the photo on 2003. Big beautiful blue eyes!!!

Lova my cat ! Big beautiful blue eyes too!

My cat Tom!! (Perverse cat! But so cute!)

My little Bill !!

And Gregor and Günter !

And my Julie of course ...... ! But she 's in Berlin this week-end! Lucky Girl! I like Berlin!

I want to go to the Venice carnival!

2011-11-03T20:30:00.008+01:00

I always wanted to go to the Venice carnival. It 's a dream. Couples of friends asked me several times to accompany them. But single with couples, no I don't want! But I found my partner for the Venice carnival! Bill!

He 's magnificent. The black costume! All what I like! I imagine my costume for Venice only in black or white! Bill's make-up is really a success! What a work! Awesome ! In Venice, no make-up, but masks, of course!

I like the black & white !! Venice !

Today, I'm a very tired Alien!

2011-11-01T13:38:00.010+01:00

It's me today ! Why ?

"Alien fatigué" by Cardem Vertigo

I voted for a big part of Halloween night. I vote for Aliens, fans of Tokio Hotel, in the MTV O Music Awards.
I voted every day for the maximum for weeks. Yesterday evening, when I came back after the walk with my dog, I saw that the votes were opened and unlimited till the end of the votes.
So, I voted from 9:15 pm on October 31st (Paris time) till 4 a.m. on November 01st (Paris time). And I'm so happy now, because Aliens won the award, but I'm so tired too and I don't feel any more my right hand.
I didn't very well understand how the super fans made to exceed me so fast, because I didn't stop to vote. Maybe, several persons voted at the same time with the same facebook account. I was alone with my facebook account. I 'll ask for an explanation to an American whom I have in contact and who exceeded me.
(Paris time) Indeed, at 10 pm I was 8th, at 11 pm, 22nd, at midnight I was 25th and then I continued to vote for Aliens, but I was not any more in the classification 25.

Picture of screen of my laptop at midnight !!!

Picture of screen of my laptop Today (2 p.m. Paris time) !!!

I have 351 922 points ! (1 vote = 18 points) --- My god! I'm really crazy!

And I 'm also so happy to see my 2 favorite twins! They are beautiful, as usual and they really seem to feel good!! It 's the main part!

Happy Halloween everyone !!

2011-10-31T18:07:00.004+01:00

I like this video !! Gustav is so effective! In 2005, Bill was already taller than everybody!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN !!!

I bought a lot of candies and nobody rings at my door. I am going to eat them !!!

The Gravedigger's Daughter - Joyce Carol Oates

2011-10-29T18:21:00.005+02:00

I have just ended to read this book, which I liked a lot. Gravedigger's Daughter of Joyce Carol Oates . (En français La fille du fossoyeur) It 's the first time that I read a book of Joyce Carol Oates.

Author Bio
• Birth—June 16, 1938
• Where—Lockport, New York, USA
• Education—B.A., Syracuse Univ.; M.A., Univ. of Wisconsin
• Awards—National Book Award for Them, 1970; 14 O. Henry Awards; six Pushcart Prizes
• Currently—lives in Princeton, New Jersey

Joyce Carol Oates is one of the most influential and important storytellers in the literary world. She has often used her supreme narrative skills to examine the dark side of middle-class Americana, and her oeuvre includes some of the finest examples of modern essays, plays, criticism, and fiction from a vast array of genres. She is still publishing with a speed and consistency of quality nearly unheard of in contemporary literature.

In 1936 the Schwarts, an immigrant family desperate to escape Nazi Germany, settle in a small town in upstate New York, where the father, a former high school teacher, is demeaned by the only job he can get: gravedigger and cemetery caretaker. After local prejudice and the family's own emotional frailty result in unspeakable tragedy, the gravedigger's daughter, Rebecca, begins her astonishing pilgrimage into America, an odyssey of erotic risk and imaginative daring, ingenious self-invention, and, in the end, a bittersweet—but very "American"—triumph. "You are born here, they will not hurt you"—so the gravedigger has predicted for his daughter, which will turn out to be true.

In The Gravedigger's Daughter, Oates has created a masterpiece of domestic yet mythic realism, at once emotionally engaging and intellectually provocative: an intimately observed testimony to the resilience of the individual to set beside such predecessors as The Falls, Blonde, and We Were the Mulvaneys.

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Excerpt

You saw him at a distance: the gravedigger Schwart.

Like a troll he appeared. Somewhat hunched, head lowered.

In the cemetery amid the gravestones. Grimacing to himself as he wielded a scythe, a sickle, a rake; as he pushed the rusted hand-mower in fierce and unvarying swaths through the dense crabgrass; as he dug out a grave, and carted away excess soil in a tipsy wheelbarrow; as he paused to wipe his forehead, and to drink from a jar he carried in his coverall pocket. Tipping back his head, eyes shut and gulping like a thirsty dog.

Schoolboys sometimes squatted behind the cemetery wall that was about three feet in height, made of crude rocks and chunks of mortar, in poor repair. Briars, poison ivy and summac grew wild along the wall. At the front entrance of the cemetery there was a wrought iron gate that could be dragged shut only with difficulty, and an eroded gravel drive, and the caretaker's stone cottage; beyond these, there were several sheds and outbuildings. The oldest gravestones ran up practically to the rear of the cottage. To the grassy area where the caretaker's wife hung laundry on clotheslines stretching between two weathered posts. If the schoolboys couldn't get close enough to Mr. Schwart to taunt him, or to toss chestnuts or stones at him, they sometimes settled for Mrs. Schwart, who would give a sharp little cry of alarm, hurt, pain, terror, drop what she was doing in the grass, and run panicked into the rear of hovel-house in a way that was very funny.

It would be pointed out that harassment of the cemetery caretaker predated Jacob Schwart's arrival. His predecessor had been similarly taunted, and his predecessor's predecessor. In Milburn, as in other country towns in that era, harassment of gravediggers and acts of vandalism in cemeteries were not uncommon.

Some of the schoolboys who harassed Jacob Schwart were as young as ten, eleven years old. In time, others would be older. And some weren't schoolboys any longer, but young men in their twenties. Not immediately, in the 1930s, but in later years. Their shouts wayward and capricious and seemingly brainless as the raucous cries of crows in the tall oaks at the rear of the cemetery.

Gravedigger! Kraut! Nazi! Jew!

Sunday at home

2011-10-23T20:59:00.004+02:00

Sunday quiet at home. I made of the sorting in my clothes today. Before my future moving! But my house isnt still sold. It 's the crisis in Europe at present. People are afraid of buying in the real estate. Banks don't lend any more. Well I hope that this situation isn't going to last for such a long time. I would like to settle this sale to be more free and to be able to go on a journey. Actually I must to remain available for potential buyers! Here are some day photos of me with some of my dresses that I like very much!

Theater: Johnny Hallyday plays Tennesse William

2011-10-22T19:39:00.007+02:00

I have just to see at the Theater Edouard VII in Paris, Johnny Hallyday the most famous French rocker, to play Tennesse William, Kingdom Of Earth. Johnny Hallyday on the stage for Theater for the first time!

I liked a lot this direction, with exceptional actors. But what most moved me, it 's the simplicity, the modesty with which, Johnny Hallyday (or I should say Jeans-Philippe Smet) occurs on this stage of the theater Edouard VII. This man performed several times in Stade de France, released 47 albums in 50 years of career, obtained 40 golden records, 22 of the platinum, 3 of the diamond and 8 Victoire de la Musique and remained so humble and so himself. I like this man who could give lessons to a lot of people. This man is a myth!
It 's until November 19th! Let's go, it is really brilliant! To reserve : Click here
Johnny Hallyday had already sung a song which speaks about Tennesse William. Beautiful song!

I like very much this song and I like very much the emotion which give off from Johnny Hallyday when he sings this song. His voice is really magnificent! An exceptional singer!

Another song that I like very much. Que je t'aime (As I love you) . I like the way Johnny H. interprets this song! With so emotion! I also like the loyalty of the fans of Johnny for all these years. They are there!

And my favorite song of Johnny! Why?

Oh Marie if you knew
All the pain which people make me
Oh Marie if I could
In your naked arms rest me
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Tomorrow it will be the great day
It will be necessary to show bravery
Rise to the front, in the front line
Oh Marie I ask you give me a sign
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Oh Marie if you knew
All the pain which people made me
Oh Marie I 'll wait
That in the sky you come to find me
Oh Marie I ll wait
That in the sky you come to find me

My song of the day : Restless Heart Syndrome

2011-10-19T21:05:00.003+02:00

I listen this song at the moment! I don't want to explain why. It is just as this! (But I 'm not sick)

I've got a really bad disease
It's got me begging on my hands and knees
Take me to the emergency
'Cause something seems to be missing
Somebody take the pain away
It's like an ulcer bleeding in my brain
Send me to the pharmacy
So I can lose my memory

I'm elated
Medicated
Lord knows I tried to find a way to run away

I think they found another cure
For broken hearts and feeling insecure
You'd be surprised what I endure
What makes you feel so self-assured

I need to find a place to hide
You never know what could be waiting outside
The accidents that you could find
It's like some kind of suicide

So what ails you is what impales you
I feel like I've been crucified to be satisfied

I'm a victim of my symptom
I am my own worst enemy
You're a victim of your symptom
You are your own worst enemy
Know your enemy

I'm elated
Medicated
I am my own worst enemy
So what ails you is what impales you
You are your own worst enemy
You're a victim of your symptom
You are your own worst enemy
You're a victim of the system

PINK FLOYD - The refuge of my adolescence

2011-10-17T21:03:00.003+02:00

One of the biggest regret of my life. I would have liked seeing Pink Floyd on stage in Berlin in 1990.
This live of " Another Brick In The Wall " is really exceptional.

Pink Floyd helped me to grow up. I was a teenager and I tried to assert myself. When I listened to Pink Floyd, I had the feeling to be an important person.

The expression in the eyes is the reflection of the soul !

2011-10-13T21:23:00.004+02:00

Bill appears without make-up today. And I find his look even more beautiful . His eyes express who he is. Without make-up, he is so more true.
As said it a friend in a comment on this blog: " the expression in the eyes is the reflection of the soul ". It is so true. In his eyes I read all what I love.

In any case, he looks happy. It makes me happy too! Even if I miss him a lot. With his brother, they succeed finally to live in Los Angeles. It 's the main part!

No title !

2011-10-11T22:04:00.002+02:00

No comment!

Only a big sadness!

Today at home - Work on my website

2011-10-10T21:43:00.003+02:00

I stayed at home today. I worked all day long on my website (http://www.bill-kaulitz.fr) and mainly on the photo gallery. I have to classify on the host of the gallery 40 000 photos in 1078 albums. A big work. But I have to do it. I want that this gallery is perfect. (http:// www.gallery.bill-kaulitz.fr)

I also have to work the biographies of the site, and especially the biography of Bill, that I would want perfect too. I 'll work on Bill's biography in Germany when I 'll go on December, the week on December 12th. I need to feel the atmosphere where he grew to feel me closer to his story. Maybe Magdeburg? I don't still know. Anyway if I go to Magdeburg, I 'll have nothing else to do that to write Bill's biography. In any case on December 15th I 'll be in Düsseldorf for the concert of Nena.
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I haven't really enough time to make all I want to make on my site. I would also like to change it completely. I have a lot of idea, but not enough time.
I 'd like to work my site every day, and I 'd be able to concentrate me on this site that I 'd like perfect also. I 'd like this site is as close as possible to the personality of Bill Kaulitz.
But no! During the day I make the same work, but on the web site of my bank. It 's much less fascinating.

Quiet weekend at home!

2011-10-08T22:00:00.007+02:00

Come back to the sporting room, abs, glutes and Zumba! Very good !!

And photo shoot in my bathroom!! Lol

....... anymore sun outside and it 's cold!

Have a nice weekend everyone!!!

Neues Land

2011-10-06T21:09:00.005+02:00

I listen to non-stop this song which is really magnificent. Music is so great! Of Nena! I feel so close to Nena! I don't know why! But this song is magnificent! I 'm trying to play this music on my piano. I really like! A real pleasure!!

Neues Land

Heute Morgen bin ich komisch aufgewacht
Ich hab mir Sorgen gemacht
Kann es sein, dass wir uns nicht mehr kennen?
Kann es sein, dass wir uns nicht mehr lieben?
Kann es sein, dass wir uns gar nicht ändern?
Kann es sein, dass wir uns auch belügen?
Ich hab keine Ahnung, ich weiß nicht Bescheid
Ich will bei Dir bleiben, manches tut mir Leid

Es gibt viele Gründe um zu weinen
Es gibt noch viel mehr Gründe mich zu freuen
Jeder Tag mit Dir ist die Erfahrung
Alles was ich bin mit Dir zu teilen
Es gibt nichts zu schaffen und zu ändern
Es gibt nur wie Du bist und wie ich bin
Und dass wir unser Glück nicht mehr verhindern
Und unterwegs das Lachen nicht verlieren

Ich hab kein Recht zu klagen
Das macht auch keinen Sinn
Doch ich darfs Dir sagen
Wenn ich traurig bin
Und wir gehen Hand in Hand
Und wir wandern auch durch den Regen
Übers Wasser in ein neues Land
Gehen wir uns entgegen

Ich lass alles unter mir und schwebe
Und guck mir Dich und mich von oben an
Und merke dass ich wieder gerne lebe
Weil ich mein Leben mit Dir teilen kann

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Germany seen by France - Lol

2011-10-04T22:38:00.004+02:00

Before 2006, in France, our friend Derrick represented Germany.

Marie : " ...... Z ... ZZ ... ZZZZZZZZZ ...... "

" Oh sorry, a little bit tired! "

Since the end of 2006, in France we don't think any more of Derrick as German worth, but of the band Tokio Hotel. Great! This group went through the world by exporting its music but also the image of Germany! I think that Germany has never had so good ambassadors. But I also think that the Germans aren't be enough grateful to the band Tokio Hotel. I would be German, I would be very proud of these boys!
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Other subject:

Marie : "Why my cat Tom waits for me in the shower every evening? No the question is: Why I called my cat, Tom? "

NCIS - My favorite TV series!

2011-10-03T22:16:00.003+02:00

I like this series. I watch very rarely the TV, but I find this series fantastic.
I would like one day to stay in my bed for a day and to watch all the seasons of NCIS non-stop. Anybody wants to watch with me ?

Gibbs is so .... !! Hey boys! Age as Gibbs!! This man is really very attractive. And Abby! I like this girl!

My new hairstyle

2011-10-01T17:52:00.006+02:00

My hairdresser is back from vacation finally. And as usual, he understood what I wanted exactly. I like very much this hairstyle!

"Sei il migliore taglio di capelli per me! Grazie Adriano!"

Liebe ist -- Nur für dich

2011-09-30T20:50:00.005+02:00

Marie : "Nur für dich! Liebe!" .

I listen actually to this magnificent song of Nena, in the subway of Paris every day and I dream.

du guckst mich an
und ich geh mit
und der ist ewig dieser augenblick
da scheint die sonne
da lacht das leben
da geht mein herz auf
ich will's dir geben
ich will dich tragen
ich will dich lieben
denn die liebe ist geblieben
hat nicht gefragt
ist einfach da
weglaufen geht nicht
das ist mir klar

du und ich das ist ganz sicher
wie ein schöner tiefer rausch
von der ganz besonderen sorte
und wir haben ein recht darauf
uns immer wieder zu begegnen
immer wieder anzusehen
wenn die große weite welt ruft
werd ich sicher mit dir geh'n

liebe will nicht
liebe kämpft nicht
liebe wird nicht
liebe ist
liebe sucht nicht
liebe fragt nicht
liebe ist so wie du bist

gute nacht mein wunderschöner
und ich möcht mich noch bedanken
was du getan hast
was du gesagt hast
es war ganz sicher nicht leicht für dich
du denkst an mich in voller liebe
und was du siehst geht nur nach vorne
du bist mutig
du bist schlau
und ich werd' immer für dich da sein
das weiß ich ganz genau

du und ich wir sind wie kinder
die sich lieben wie sie sind
die nicht lügen und nicht fragen
wenn es nichts zu fragen gibt
wir sind zwei und wir sind eins
und wir sehn die dinge klar
und wenn einer von uns gehen muss
sind wir trotzdem immer da

wir sind da, wir sind da, wir sind da
wir sind da, wir sind da, wir sind da

liebe will nicht
liebe kämpft nicht
liebe wird nicht
liebe ist
liebe sucht nicht
liebe fragt nicht
liebe fühlt sich an wie du bist

liebe soll nicht
liebe kämpft nicht
liebe wird nicht
liebe ist
liebe sucht nicht
liebe fragt nicht
liebe ist so wie du bist

so wie du bist
so wie du bist
liebe ist so wie du bist
liebe so wie du bist
liebe ist so wie du bist
liebe ist so wie du bist
liebe so wie du bist
liebe ist so wie du bist
so wie du bist
so wie du bist

I hate internet

2011-09-27T22:22:00.004+02:00

I hate internet and nevertheless I connect there every day. And I can't live without internet today.
I hate Facebook and the pseudonyms of the accounts. You never know to whom you speak.
I hate internet and I have a training of network engineer. Paradoxical!
In fact what I do not like it 's the persons who hide on internet behind pseudos and who feel strong.
Some feel so strong that they harass the others to try to trap them by organizing a direction with several accounts facebook.
And when you say to these accounts facebook that you wish to meet them to work with them because you don't work otherwise, the accounts disappear.
I 'm not vulnerable, but many persons are vulnerable. I find it 's very saddening.
I have just lived it! So I hate internet!
At the same time internet 's the only means which I found to be close to persons who I love and who are far!

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Message for Aliens: I love you Aliens and I want to stay among you. I love you because you so gave me! The rest has no importance!

Scheiße, Scheiße, Scheiße und noch Scheiße

2011-09-25T23:26:00.002+02:00

This has nothing to do with the sale of my house.
The Fans of Tokio Hotel forget me! I manage my site since 2007 as I want. I collaborate with the persons whom I want and whom I feel positive for Bill and the band.
I don't really any more want to belong to this fans' world. Sorry, but I needed to say it this evening. Tomorrow all 'll be better! As usual!

My house on sale!

2011-09-24T22:23:00.005+02:00

My house is officially for sale today. It 's strange. It 's for sale on internet. HERE

We can see in my bedroom, on the wall, a photo dedicated by Bill Kaulitz. This photo moves with me of course, it 's not for sale.

Very busy and annoyed Alien!

2011-09-22T22:07:00.007+02:00

I am very busy with the sale of my house and the search for apartment.. My house is officially for sale on Saturday and I already have a first visit on Saturday. This house is going to be quickly sold. And I still have no apartment. I visited 2. I visit 2 others on Saturday. I look for F4 with 3 bedrooms. I want a big bedroom for me, because I want to install my piano there to be finally able to replay there quietly. I hope that I am soon going to find!
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Why annoyed Alien ? Certains fans wish to collaborate with my site for projects. And very mainly because I update the page of Tokio Hotel on Goomradio. My site is partner of Goomradio since the creation of Tokio Hotel Radio (in 2009). I am not against collaborations with fans' projects. Moreover I am affiliate with numerous foreign TH sites. But when the projects are built around fans' rivalry, I prefer to refuse. And I hate when certain fans try to trap me to reach their end. I 'm not going to tell what took place, that has no importance. But I am very disappointed one more time by the behavior of the fans of TH. I 'm just going to stop believing that I can have my place among them. The projects 'll make just with the persons of my forum whom I totally trust. For the rest, I ll be alone, wandering Alien. I prefer!
First of all,, I 'm a fan of Bill Kaulitz before of being an Alien. I 'll always be fan of Bill Kaulitz, I don't know if I 'll remain an Alien. In any case, I 'll remain a fan in the shadow.

Feeling

2011-09-17T20:54:00.006+02:00

Bill gets a new look very often and when the fans wait for my opinion about the new look of Bill, I always have many difficulties expressing my opinion. And often I say that I like. What it's true! The fans then say to me that I 'm blinded with my passion and that I accept all from Bill. Yes it 's likely.
In fact my passion for Bill is really beyond his look. His various looks are always perfects. He has class. Whatever the look, it's perfect. He never makes fault. And I like that. And whatever the look, his eyes expresse the same thing, something special! Something that I love above all! Something I 've never seen with another person! Something which fascinates me! Something unique! Something that I 'll never forget! And this something, I don't know how to explain it!
I don't really know why I love him! I love him simply! I don't know why!

His look changes, but his gaze never changes!! And what his eyes expresses never change!

Das Wochenende endlich !

2011-09-16T19:43:00.007+02:00

Very good news today: MTV announces the release of the new album of Tokio Hotel in spring, 2012. I am very happy!
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Technical problem on the host of my site http://www.bill-kaulitz.fr : I can't update the site since the beginning of September. I 'm very irritated, especially because I pay this host. I was not able to talk about Gustav's birthday and about the new look of Bill, on Bill's site! I'm so irritated.
But the news are updated on my other sites:

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I put on sale my house tomorrow and I need to find an apartment to buy. I 'm going to be very busy in the following weeks. At present it 's easier to sell than to buy a property. To follow...
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My hairdresser is on vacation. I want he comes back. I found a new haircut, more rock. I like.
An anonymous person asked me on my blog why I wear the short hair? Simply because that looks like me..It 's my male side, a little developed .
I am heterosexual. But I like refined men. I like stylish men, those who take care of their look. That eliminates many guys.

My beautiful passion

2011-09-13T21:30:00.006+02:00

New look for Bill! Again! I like that. I like that he always surprises! I think that he became so manly, so virile! I think he 's so sexy and so attractive!

I like seeing him on these photos, but I so miss him. I so want to see him really that these photos, even if I have pleasure to look at them, they hurt me.
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I want to sing Nena tonight! I want to sing this song!
"......
Es tut mir weh, wenn ich dich seh
Weil ich das, was du sagen willst,gar nicht versteh
Und ich kann nicht denken und ich kann nichts tun
Ich will dich vergessen, ohne Liebe bin ich nichts
........
Und wenn der Tag sich endlos neigt
Auch wenn es nie mehr wieder kommt, weiß ich es bleibt
Wenn ich bei dir nicht schlafen kann
Dann komm ich trotzdem immer wieder bei uns an
.........
Ich will wieder schlafen und auch wieder essen
Wie gerne wär ich wieder bei dir
Wir wissen beide ohne Liebe sind wir nichts
Und was ich weiß ist ohne Liebe bin ich nichts
..... "

Sad birthday

2011-09-11T13:51:00.005+02:00

Today we celebrate a very sad birthday. But we think all of New York!

Julie in New York in April, 2000. She didn't understand in this time why she walked so to take this photo. Today this photo is so special for everybody.
I remember this day, on September 11th, 2001. I worked in the 15th floor of a tower of La Defense in Paris ( the most important European business center). At the end of the day, we were all anxious to see appearing planes in the sky of La Defense. But no, America was only bruised that day. I 'll never forget these pictures. Never!

Why ?

2011-09-10T21:21:00.003+02:00

Our current world is so developed that we can feel close to persons whom we want with a lot of easiness. Internet, telephone. And then less 1 day we can go all around the world (11 hours for Tokyo and L.A., 8 hours for NY, 9 hours for Peking, 12 hours for Rio, 14 hours for Singapore … from Paris. And nevertheless I can't be by the side of the only person with whom I want to be. The life is sometimes very complicated. I would just like to understand … Why?

One hundred years of solitude by Xia Meimei
I like this picture!!!!

Memories of Asia

2011-09-09T19:21:00.002+02:00

Here are 2 memory videos of my journeys in Asia last year, with Aliens of Asia.

In the first video, Julie and I spent the afternoon with japanese fans (fan of Tokio Hotel) to Shibuya. Julie teaches the French language to the girls. I like very much watching again this moment. The Japanese girls were really very welcoming and very respectful. It is Japan! I miss these girls very much!

In the second video, Julie and I were in Singapore with a fan of Hong-Kong. We looked for the special version of Humanoid album, containing a ticket to can attend the signing session. The taxi driver wanted to show us Singapore and to take us at Mustapha (??). But we, Aliens, just wanted to find our special editions albums. Funny memory!!!

Today - Come back from my work

2011-09-06T20:16:00.004+02:00

I have a lot of work at the moment. I have many days off to be taken (20 days before December, 2011). I didn't have journey for Tokio Hotel this year. 1 week in December, 2011 to see Nena in Germany!
I 'm now going to take care of the sale of my house and of the purchase of an apartment.

Twins

2011-09-04T09:47:00.005+02:00

It 's really amazing if we concentrate on the eyes! Really twins!!! And very beautiful twins!

Happy Birthday Bill - Happy Birthday Tom

2011-09-01T00:00:00.007+02:00

Happy birthday Bill !

I wish you a very happy birthday Bill! I hope that everything is well for you and that you are happy at present! You are every day in my thoughts and my site continues to live even if you are not there.
Takes care of you Bill, Du bist für mich so Heilig!

Mit meiner ganzen Liebe! Küss ! Marie

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Happy Birthday Tom !

I wish you a very happy birthday Tom! Even if your brother fascinates me, you are for me somebody who touches me and who intrigues me a lot. It is impossible to love Bill remaining indifferent to you. There would be error!
I am touched by the mystery which hangs over you and by this shell whom you built all around. But I know that behind all this, there is an enormous heart. You are a very good person Tom and a rare person! Never change!
Very affectionately! Küss! Marie

Nena unplugged und mehr - Bald

2011-08-29T20:15:00.005+02:00

I finally 'll see Nena in a concert on December 15th, 2011 in Düsseldorf. I want to spend alone this week of December 13th in Germany. I need it. I received my ticket. A very good place.

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This concert with Nena, 'll help me to forget that 1 year earlier, on December 15th, 2010, I saw Bill singing in Tokyo.

Come back to Paris - Cold

2011-08-28T16:50:00.006+02:00

30 degrees in Nice and less than 20 degrees in Paris. The holidays are finished. Today, Humanoid jogging in the wood of Vincennes, painting on the shutters of my house and tomorrow work! I want to cry!

I miss my Aliens friends and I miss the sun and the beach of Nice too.

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I like very much this video that I filmed on the beach of Cagnes sur Mer with my Aliens friends, the members of the forum of my site.

Here Jeanne, Nath, Fabi, Delphine, Sandrine, Manue and I.

Delphine ( from Marseille ) talks to me (from Paris).
Delphine : You film late there?
I : Yes and so what ?
Delphine : You film after everybody ?
I : Yes and what's the problem ...
-----------> An uninteresting discussion between an inhabitant of Marseille and an inhabitant of Paris.
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All ...... Julie is missing

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Nath : All this started thanks to a forum on internet (Marie :"The forum of my site Bill-Kaulitz.fr")
Sandrine : When we think that 4 years ago, we know us in no way.
- We did not even know the existence of each.
- 4 gherkins landed in France. And German gherkins!
I : They are the best! (The german gherkins)
Sandrine : Small German wankers!
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I specify that for Sandrine " Small wanker " and "Gherkin" are signs of affection and that we are all very very fan of Tokio Hotel.

Bill-Kaulitz.fr - An amazing story of friendship

2011-08-27T14:41:00.012+02:00

We met thanks to the same passion, the passion of Tokio Hotel and Bill Kaulitz. We are very friendly today, even if kilometers separate us. Here (on the pictures) are 3 moderators of the forum of Bill-Kaulitz.fr (Sandrine from Lorient, Delphine from Marseille and Manue from Nice). I am the administrator and live in Paris. 2 others moderators are missing on these photos (Mireille from Toulouse and Marie-Agnès from Brussels). It was the first time that we were a few days together in Cagnes sur Mer at Manue's home. What a happiness to know these girls! We have in any case the same way of supporting Tokio Hotel. I like very much that!

(3 moderators and the administrator of Bill-Kaulitz.fr in water)
(Sandrine - Delphine - Marie (I) - Manue)

At work, even on vacation! (I and Delphine)

(Manue, Sandrine and Delphine)

(Sandrine and Delphine = The hurricane! Sure)

(Manue and I = the sun! Yes)

(I, Sandrine and Manue in Nice)

And yes, I also drink some water, and I am not sick... I am just very thirsty with the heat of Nice...

Holidays - Nice - with my Aliens Friends

2011-08-25T13:50:00.004+02:00

A few days in Nice with my friends of my site bill-kaulitz.fr ( My moderators) 2 are missing here . With this heat, the forum of bill-kaulitz.fr in the water and our mascot Jeanne (Baby TH number 2)

(Nathalie, Delphine, Sandrine, Emmanuelle and I - Jeanne Baby TH)

I 'll soon post the other photos. In any case we really have fun a lot. We miss a concert of Tokio Hotel in Nikaia.

I'm fed up works in my house

2011-08-21T22:49:00.002+02:00

I'm fed up works in my house. With this heat in Paris this weekend, I would have better felt in the swimming pool. I 'm eagier that these works are ended, that the house is sold and that I can think of another matter.

What do you think about the influence of the first names on the character of people ?

2011-08-19T22:59:00.002+02:00

That is a great question!
I think that the first name which we have since our birth, influences our behavior. Maybe because of the sounds which we hear when people call us? When sounds are brief we react more quickly. When sounds are soft our reactions are then more quiet.

For example, all Julie, Sophie or Lucie whom I know are quite very dynamic and very alive. AND on the contrary, every Paul are quiet.

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My fishes Gunter and Gregor never speak!!??
My dog Bill is always next to me. Every night, he is by my side. I like! When I don't sleep, I whisper him slowly in the ear: " I love you Bill " !!??
And my cat Tom waits for me discreetly every evening in the shower!? He runs away because I splash him with the shower.!?
These behaviors are really strange!! No ?

Hallo !!!

2011-08-18T18:06:00.003+02:00

I am so busy with the works in my house actually. I work the day and the evening I work in my house. At the moment in Paris, it 's easier to sell a property than to buy, because there are no offers. Everything is very fast sold. And I don't find an apartment to be bought which I like. I think that if my house is fast sold, I am going to rent an apartment while waiting for finding something which I like. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I leave to Nice next week for 3 days with my Aliens friends. I am really very happy to see again them, these Aliens from Nantes, Cagnes, Monaco and Marseille.
If Tokio Hotel wants to give a private concert at Nikaya in Nice on August 24th, 25th or 26th, we 'll be there!! We can dream a little!

I WANT A TOKIO HOTEL CONCERT !!!!!

6 years ago - Durch den Monsun - Tokio Hotel

2011-08-15T12:06:00.003+02:00

6 years ago today, the first single of Tokio Hotel was born : Durch den Monsun. This magnificent song is a real happiness to hear on live.
Here are all my videos with this song in several concerts through the world :

Paris the 9th March 2008

Montréal the 19th May 2008 (My favourite video)

Monaco the 5th july 2008

Genève the 12 july 2008

Sayreville (US) the 07 August 2008

St Jean sur Richelieu (Canada) the 9th August 2008

Köln , the 27th August 2009

Oberhausen, the 26th february 2010 ( because it's in Germany where this song is the most beautiful)

Hamburg the 28th february 2010

Tokyo the 15th december 2010 (I cry because it was my last concert)

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I am very busy at the moment with my house which I prepare to sell. But my thoughts are always full of Bill Kaulitz and Tokio Hotel. This boy is really part of my life forever.

3 days in my cellar : sorting

2011-08-14T19:19:00.007+02:00

Paul's birthday!

The cake made by Paul and I!! Beautiful and very good! Chocolate of course!

Happy birthday Paul !!

The guess star - Lova!

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I have just spent 3 days sorting in my cellar. 20 full big bin liners, 2 times going to the recycling center with the full car, 25 bags of clothes and 15 big boxes of toys that I gave. I have the feeling to do the housework in my life. I 'm really tired but I have the lighter spirit. Finally, I don't need a shrink, I just have to tidy up my cellar or tidy up my past.

At the bottom of my cellar, this is what I found. (FOR SALE)

The poster presents on the house as we had bought it. I think that the message is clear. This house will be for sale again in 1 month.

Memory - 12 August 1999 - Happy birthday Paul

2011-08-12T09:36:00.005+02:00

12 years ago today, my little Paul was born. I remember this day as if it was yesterday.

Happy birthday Paul!!

(Paul et Julie this day)

Works in my house

2011-08-11T21:32:00.004+02:00

I begin some works in my house. I 'll put it on sale as soon as possible from September. A little paint on shutters, on some walls... And especially I have to make of the sorting in the cellar, to prepare the moving. In fact, I have a lot of work during my last week of holidays.

Before my work ..

I work ...

I am eager that this house is sold and whom I am in my new apartment. I have to find it. I met my banker today... I 'm lucky to work in the bank. The steps are simpler.